What is going to happen to this blog?

I don't know, this blog was my diary during my struggle through medical school. I've had some sort of digital diary ever since I was 12 - 13 I think... some of you have seen my previous one from primary and high school, hahah. Heddelande, I will keep it here right where it is, but I feel like a large chapter of my life has ended, and this blog is part of that chapter...

What should I do? Should I start a new blog? Will I even keep writing if I start a new blog? Do I want to? Do I have time? Will Instagram suffice instead? Why am I not getting new followers on Instagram!? Should I create a professional website, connected to a personal blog, is that good for business?

What do I want with my life? No time to waste, I should start preparing for that right now.

Here look at my recent buffness.

GLAD PÅSK

Semesteeer! Easter! I'm at home for a few days, tomorrow me and mom are going to Moscow. Haven't been there for six years!! Such a shame, but at last. It's going to be quite cold apparently, around zero degrees. By now (after six months of winter) I suppose zero degrees is going to feel warm-ish. We had absolutely lovely weather today though, I ran hill-intervals for 30 minutes and did a few exercises. Privet was my spectator.

By the way, I gained almost three kilos?? Since January. That's a LOT for me, I only weighed over 60 kilos once before, in high school when I was "fat" from high alcohol consumption heh heh. I've been pushing harder at the gym ever since I realised that I'm not going to be a lazy gymmer no more, which clearly works. I can do pistol squats now hehee... but I probably gained some fat too :)

Sincerely

I'm socially exhausted, in a very lonely way. I go to work, mostly have lunch alone, work over-time because I'm so slow with paperwork... spend two hours at the gym, eat and sleep. Oh and shop online.

I'm a social animal, really. I need my giggle, attention and gossip. Dennis has been away for two weeks and it is well enough. Saw Dollal and Nora this weekend for a fika, yay, but I can't live off a 50 minute fika! Spoke with my mom on the phone for some hour. How am I going to socially survive when medschool is over? What is going to happen!? Dennis, we must never be apart, you are stuck with me. DENNIIIIIS.

I'm almost speaking to strangers at the gym. And gym really saves me by the way. The feeling after exercise, as right now, oh it's so good... and I've noticed on occasions when I haven't exercised for two or three days, like during exams or travelling or viruses for instance... that I get angry! Mad and insulting things and people in my head, haha. I wonder if that is a deficiency of something, like some sort of withdrawal... or an excess of something waiting to be consumed.

Bla bla bla! Well I don't have a social life, so where else would I share it.

By the way, I ordered these tights from Gymshark. I have their flex leggings from before which may be the most comfortable gym tights I've ever owned. So eventually I got these too, but I actually ordered cropped ones, capris... they sent me full length by mistake. So I wrote an email, and they sent me new capris and let me keep these. That is actually really good service, no wonder Gymshark is becoming a big brand quickly. This model is not nearly as comfortable as the flex leggings though. These are a bit too short on me and tend to ride down around the crotch area, like most tights do in my opinion. Now I have two pairs, they look good but I wouldn't order more colours. Bla bla bla :)

Merrell in my H

My phone camera can take decent pics at times, but oh not today - beware of extraordinary picture quality.

Learned a lot this week. Spent 3,5 days at the cardiology department and 1,5 days at the ER. Usually I don't sleep well when I'm feeling stressed, but... well firstly I have been mentally exhausted before bedtime... but the stress at work doesn't make me anxious, like a big exam does for instance, rather excited... scared sometimes but, I saw and treated a neurotic angioedema yesterday, how rare and cool is that!!

I've been to gym Tue, Wed, Fri this week so far - not bad. Can't wait to go tomorrow. My new shoes are minimum cushioning "barefoot feel" running shoes. Oh, oh, oh, this is exactly what I've been looking for. So glad that I din't go with Nike again. My previous Nike Free Run 5,0 were also pure love... but I needed new shoes, and the updated Free Run's are squishier and softer... I rather wanted something stiffer, as close to barefoot-feel as possible, and found these from Merrell. Hell, I have no idea of the name of the shoe, all I remember is a strange name, too advanced for it's own good. Hard, ergonomic shoes strengthens the bones and muscles of the foot, and give more knee stability (no wiggle to the sides), thus also great for weightlifting. And these are 10/10 comfortable. PEACE.

Long time no fitness-post

So I can't remember if I shared detailed fitness goals here, for 6th year. But someone asked me about it this summer, and I told him that my goal for the coming year is to keep and maintain what I have. He was confused.

I didn't really know how much exercise I would have time for, with everything going on - moving out from Debrecen, Finland, travelling, exams - so I thought that it'd be too much to ask of myself to have any particular progress. Which is alright, but I realised this week that I'm done with that. Despite everything, I've actually kept an average of 5 workouts per week, but with some sort of mindset that I'm chillin' at the gym and not improving because I'm "so busy". Excuse me, me, but 5 times per week is perfect and besides, why not make the time spent at the gym WELL spent?

Enough with lazy exercising, (lol?) I have a few specific goals already:
- muscle ups! (me and Roy have a bet that we have to learn it by the end of March, haha)
- pistol squats, so hard for me, especially on my operated leg. Gonna learn it!
- crossfit moves in general, I barely know the names of the exercises so not going to try and name more.
- stronger triceps and biceps, my triceps particularly are so tiny, is it genetics??
- stronger obliques. Please, google "strong obliques". Don't know why I didn't bother to do oblique-dominant exercises before.
- more cardio. You've heard it before, an old goal which I am consistently unsatisfied with. The reason is that I want a strong and vascularized heart muscle and a good oxidative burst regularly.

Photos below are now, compared to January 2016. Minor difference. I've improved on my core strength this year and did a new PB in deadlifts (85kg) this summer, and developed my quads a bit, but that's all I think. In a year! Got a bit weaker in pullups and squats, ajajaj.

Past week in exercise:
Mon: rest/day before psych exam
Tue: gym (biceps, chest, hamstrings, obliques, 10 min intensive running)
Wed: gym (triceps, squats, abs)
Thu: nightshift/restday
Fri: crossfit class (learned how to snatch!)
Sat: gym (shoulders, deadlifts, abs)
Sun: gym (obliques, 2 km barefoot running, front squats)

Emojinal

Geeeez! I biked to the gym tonight which takes about five minutes and arrived with my nose all RED because it's minus 8 degrees C and humid and windy. My bike was covered in frost after just two hours. But damn I had a nice session and the gym was almost empty.

Should I share today's programme? I can share it. This would be "Saturday: back, squats, abs".
- 4, 6, 8, 8, 6, 7 pull ups
- 4 x 12 face pulls
- 4 x 10 pull downs with straight arms
- 2 x (4 x 10) single arm row
- 10, 6, 6, 4, 4, 3, 3 squats (20 - 55 kg's)
- 4 x 10 front squats with just the bar
- 3 x 30 plank/crunches with TRX

So today has been a chill day. I slept until noon because I've been so sleep deprived this week and had breakfast on the balcony because it was sunny and I haven't touched any sunshine since I came here, needless to say it was freezing haha... read some neuro, took selfies and took off to gym. Wowowow what a life!!!!! And check out my new PJ's!

Minusplus

Hilarious weekend at the end of a miserable week. I was so stressed at practice... and sleep deprived. It was horrible. But on Friday we celerbrated Eleni and Saturday night was spent at Tieger's. Felt amazing to be surrounded by friends. Went running today, but I couldn't enter the arena due to an ongoing football game so I went to the stadium... and had to run holding my bag which was just... not convenient at all so I settled at 2,2 km. No problem bringing a bag to the arena but I can't leave it in the grass at the stadium. Still 2k is much better than nothing and altogether I walked + ran 8,7 km.

Deffo

Back! Is the part that I dread the most during my workout week lately. At the same time back is what I'm best at, gym-wise, compared to myself with regard to other things that I do at the gym. Rowing is cholera... but I still have this relative excess definition posteriorly. Which I think is pretty cool haha :D see my triceps? Me neither, and I took this photo during last week's tricep-day, also the reason why I nowadays have a gym day each week totally focused on triceps.

Past week in exercise:
Tuesday: rest
Wednesday: triceps, chest, butt
Thursday: rest
Friday: biceps, shoulders, legs quad-dominant, abs
Saturday: at home - pushups, shoulder press, 5,5 km run
Sunday: 10 km walk
Monday: triceps, deadlifts (PB 80 kg's! hehe), abs
Tuesday: at home - jumping split lunges, barbell bicep & brachialis curls

Lacking this past week: back, legs with hamstring focus, not enough chest exercises. Ajajaj :) tomorrow!

Set

Photos from a lovely Saturday evening. Now the weekend is already over - whaat! But I'm entering the last week of work for this summer. Feels nice. I have some fun planned these coming days too with a few friends that I'm looking forward to a lot. Going to bed xxx

Crimson

Pics from today. Wowowoow what a summery day! Utterly unusual here in Sweden unfortunately, so I took it as a sign not to study a single second. Mah-mah-mah. Yes because I'm planning to take the neurology final in two months... Help me.

Flie

Past week in exercise:
Fri - REST
Sat - home gym (hamstrings, butt, abs)
Sun - 6 km run, countryside
Mon - REST
Tue - gym (shoulders, abs, deadlifts)
Wed - gym (back, abs)
Thu - gym (chest, triceps, 6 km run on treadmill)
Fri - REST

Five workouts this week, quite sore at this moment and content with that. Lost gains, fear not - I have you back with me almost! OH any my PHONE is also back with me! It broke and I turned it in for service over a month ago... finallyyy.

Dill

Where did the sun go? Typical now that Matilda and her boyfriend are visiting me in a few hours. Prognosis says that it's going to clear up soon, which I'd prefer for we will grill to the thrill of the dill.

Båven blues

Took some pics tonight starting out on our lot, but the sun went down... I was hesitant to continue on the other side of the lake for the sake of exposing my vanity... because all neighbors are in their houses right now... but I decided that I didn't care enough. The lake was at peace after the rainstorm that had just passed by and I felt like... a soft piece of cotton... nice and calm and fluffy, just rowing around by myself.

The bikini is from Sommer Swim and I was dying to get it all spring and summer hehe. Elle top and rayder bottoms in "ontario".

Ah hellu

Heey. What a week! Slept a little learned a lot. So far I really like it at the oncology clinic and it is definitely an option for specialization in the future. Going to be there for 5 more weeks. And I've submitted my thesis ye! Finally. Now I'm just expecting some feedback before I can make the final adjustments.

I've been waiting to finish my thesis to start writing an abstract for an idea that I have that I want to try and patent. So that might come up soon... We will see how that goes :)

At the countryside now, so nice. Got dropped off on the way here and ran the last bit home.

Flow

I'm having a really good flow, have been doing something active every day the past week and just feeling very strong and healthy and determined. Went to gym early this morning and got to end the evening with a calm 6 km run here on the countryside. Not a single car ye :D

This is what 80 minutes at the gym can look like for me (my workout today), aim - biceps and triceps:
- chins, 6x sets 4, 6, 8, 8, 8, 8 reps
- dips, 5x sets 12, 12, 12, 12, 10 reps
- tricep pulldowns, 5x sets 10 + 10 reps (grip switch from pronated to supinated)
- bicep curls, 4x sets 5 + 5 + 5 (wide grip - normal grip - narrow grip)
- (bonus - 5x  sets 10 of back extensions cus I forgot to do them last week)

My arms are DONE.

I can add that I also usually do narrow/tricep pushups on a triceps day, but I did those yesterday. Once a week I also do reverse bicep curls/brachialis curls but I will have to do them on another day.

Neån

Oh my, I need to go on a run, but I will never go on a run past 9 PM again. Last time I did that I scared away 10 deers, ran aside a wheezing badger (it ran next to me for like 20 meters) and finally got stopped, by momma moose and her 500 kilogram baby. That one time was enough. Had a small home workout today after a minor viral infection and feeling ready for some gym tomorrow. Pics from this afternoon when I was avoinding finishing my thesis. Nice tan ye?

Ohh and remember the 2 kg's I gained this semester - they are gone. I'm back at 57 kg's, damn... and that's with clothes on. It just happens after every exam period....

Past week in exercise:
Wednesday: gym (biceps, triceps, abs)
Thursday: nothing
Friday: gym (back, deadlifts, abs)
Saturday: gym (chest, butt, abs)
Sunday: nothing
Monday: nothing
Tuesday: home workout with kettlebells (shoulders, squats) + abs

Nine

It is soooo good to be home. Went on a 9 km run today and which was PURE pleasure, it was so so refreshing, with the one exception that I got my period half way home. No mercy. Conveniently, I had spent some 20 minutes to find my black running shorts today, so my anonymity as fertile female was preserved... how tiring isn't it though that we are ashamed of our periods, when half of all people, and half of all mammals on earth were born to have their period too.