Issue #2487

Finally got my ass to the gym tonight. I wore my winter jacket on the way there because it's getting nice and cold now!!

I've been feeling gloomy the past few days. Dennis is my only real comfort over here but for some periods, like at the moment, he doesn't want to talk to me about anything that is not school related, and I feel like he's constantly nagging for me to study more. I know that my immunology results have been poor/bad/shitty but the rest of my results are OK. I'm not like him, I can't focus on school all. the. time, and I don't even want to! Yes I want to become a doctor but I don't wish to spend my entire adolesence studying. I'm a curious lively and talkative person. I like to talk about silly things that make me smile. I look up to Dennis for his determinition and intellect, but I don't share his philosophy at the moment.

I'm not sure if there is a something that could boost my motivation to study more (quantitatively), or to increase my efficiency... determinition is something that has to come from myself. I want to find that balance that gives me everything - health, love, good grades, beauty and fun. Does not help to have the feeling of being lonely, when I'm not even alone...



I'm studying for the mid-term exam in microbiology that we have on Friday afternoon this week... but I just have to show you the new lipstick that I bought in Budapest <333 It's "Snob" by MAC Cosmetics. Such a gorgeous pink with an undertone hinting of lavender. Not natural at all. Love it.

Budapest (random)

No swimming... I accidentally went to Budapest on Saturday morning. Fuuuun! I promised to restrict my photo upload hahah but here are a couple ... :)


CITRUS LOVE. And love.

CITRUS LOVE. Ooomg... how could I forget that oranges are this amazing? I feel like I'm addicted to oranges and clementins now. PLEASE go buy a couple of oranges, you will be thankful that I encouraged you.

I know that it's Friday but I don't feel like going out tonight. Actually I feel like it a little bit... but right now I feel even more like staying at home, cooking or baking something and have an efficient study session. Then watch a movie with Dennis.

The semester is ending soon and if we don't finish this right, it's going to be nasty. Starting to feel the pressure here... but no stress yet.

Still coughing some, but I'm very well thank you. I've been to the gym twice this week and today I've been seriously considering swimming for tomorrow "morning". Feel like pumping my pulse a bit extra!

Me and Eleni at the LSB library:



That virus totally got me. Forget what I said, I've been sick the last few days... finally feeling a lot better today.

1st immunology SCT flopped big time. I'm most likely going to take the final, hopefully to "only" improve my grade but... yeah actually don't want to say anything else. I really want to reach the passing level in average.


Antique love poem

I know I said this before, like at least three times; I love reading my old blog. I was looking for photos of the time when I felt chubby (actually was a little chubby - suddently started drinking alcohol which disrupted my metabolic balance) but I barely took photos of myself at that time so I was not too successful in my mission...

However during this visit of my blog, I found a poem that I had written in October 2010. It's about Dennis, basically. Actually a lot of my old posts are secretely about Dennis, and I love re-discovering my sneakiness at that time... when I wasn't sure if he liked me as much as I liked him... back then we we're not a couple officially. "At all".

Som bäst det mår man mest,
om man sova gott och äta gott,
om pulsen lättsamt leker,
om man dyra händer smeker.
Jag sova kanske timmar få,
men hjärtat slå
och i hjärtat stå
att jag mår mest bäst ändå.

You feel great, when you sleep well and eat good food, when your pulse is heedlessly playing, and you may hold the hands of a precious one. (...) My sleeping hours may be few, but the heart is beating, and in the heart it says, that I'm mostly great anyways.

I swear the poem is much cuter in Swedish. But I have to share at least some of the meaning you know...
Here's an "unseen" photo of us in Malta this summer... haha. Dennis hates the photo but I look nice so... ;P



When are we getting the results from the Immunology SCT? I'm so scared to see it now :O so far I haven't scored anything good in particular, 74% in microbiology and 77% in clinical biochemistry. Really want to push it above 80 but I reaaally have been studying too late for all the SCT's. And the immunology one was hard... how will they grade the essay questions!? Aaah!!!

Something nicer - I bought this dress at H&M on Friday afternoon. It's the one that I wore to the dinner tonight. My first (ever!) long dress haha! But I like it :)

GÅ och duscha nuu

Heiyaa how is everyone doing. I got back home from a dinner with the girls some hour ago :) It was niice. Although I wish I could have eaten something too! I burned my whole tounge on hot coffee today so I only had a Pina Colada and salad... Have you ever burned your tounge!? So sore huhu.

Went out to Bakelit with Leo and some Italians on Friday but left quite early for sleep hehe. I regret being a complete douche for a moment.. I didn't know how to deal with the "situation" it in a nice way, so I went with being passive... Sorry though. Would hate to be avoided like that :/

HAVE TO STUDY BUT I HAVEN'T. I read ONE page this whole weekend. Geeee. Dennis is sick and I too caught a bit of a cold this week but I have to say, it was dealt with pretty well! Didn't even miss out on a single workout :)



Halloween 2013

This Halloween was hilarious. Me and Bendy went as "The French maid.. and her friend". Hahaaa ;) want to guess where we found Bendy's outfit? Me I was supposed to be a "snow queen" hehe.

Was in an awesome mood the whole evening. Best halloween night in Debrecen.