I'm socially exhausted, in a very lonely way. I go to work, mostly have lunch alone, work over-time because I'm so slow with paperwork... spend two hours at the gym, eat and sleep. Oh and shop online.

I'm a social animal, really. I need my giggle, attention and gossip. Dennis has been away for two weeks and it is well enough. Saw Dollal and Nora this weekend for a fika, yay, but I can't live off a 50 minute fika! Spoke with my mom on the phone for some hour. How am I going to socially survive when medschool is over? What is going to happen!? Dennis, we must never be apart, you are stuck with me. DENNIIIIIS.

I'm almost speaking to strangers at the gym. And gym really saves me by the way. The feeling after exercise, as right now, oh it's so good... and I've noticed on occasions when I haven't exercised for two or three days, like during exams or travelling or viruses for instance... that I get angry! Mad and insulting things and people in my head, haha. I wonder if that is a deficiency of something, like some sort of withdrawal... or an excess of something waiting to be consumed.

Bla bla bla! Well I don't have a social life, so where else would I share it.

By the way, I ordered these tights from Gymshark. I have their flex leggings from before which may be the most comfortable gym tights I've ever owned. So eventually I got these too, but I actually ordered cropped ones, capris... they sent me full length by mistake. So I wrote an email, and they sent me new capris and let me keep these. That is actually really good service, no wonder Gymshark is becoming a big brand quickly. This model is not nearly as comfortable as the flex leggings though. These are a bit too short on me and tend to ride down around the crotch area, like most tights do in my opinion. Now I have two pairs, they look good but I wouldn't order more colours. Bla bla bla :)


Merrell in my H

My phone camera can take decent pics at times, but oh not today - beware of extraordinary picture quality.

Learned a lot this week. Spent 3,5 days at the cardiology department and 1,5 days at the ER. Usually I don't sleep well when I'm feeling stressed, but... well firstly I have been mentally exhausted before bedtime... but the stress at work doesn't make me anxious, like a big exam does for instance, rather excited... scared sometimes but, I saw and treated a neurotic angioedema yesterday, how rare and cool is that!!

I've been to gym Tue, Wed, Fri this week so far - not bad. Can't wait to go tomorrow. My new shoes are minimum cushioning "barefoot feel" running shoes. Oh, oh, oh, this is exactly what I've been looking for. So glad that I din't go with Nike again. My previous Nike Free Run 5,0 were also pure love... but I needed new shoes, and the updated Free Run's are squishier and softer... I rather wanted something stiffer, as close to barefoot-feel as possible, and found these from Merrell. Hell, I have no idea of the name of the shoe, all I remember is a strange name, too advanced for it's own good. Hard, ergonomic shoes strengthens the bones and muscles of the foot, and give more knee stability (no wiggle to the sides), thus also great for weightlifting. And these are 10/10 comfortable. PEACE.


Modulatory functions

Yoyoyo. That's that for Debrecen this time. Had an exhausting last day at Gynaecology practice, but it's finally over. So glad that I probably don't have to do all 5/5 weeks here...

Got a 4 in the pediatrics exam and a 5 in psychiatry. Would have liked a better grade in pediatrics of course but I think it was a fair grade based on my performance, I wasn't excessively prepared for neonatology, which was one of my topics so... Yesss...

Printed my thesis!!!

Off to Finland tomorrow. Will do 3 months at internal medicine (mainly cardiology) as a "hospital doctor". I would have liked to want to go out tonight, but I'm so, so tired.... I doubt that I will even go to the gym. And I have to pack and clean and wake up at 5.30 AM... I wish I wanted to. We shall see.