What's up yaa

Hi! Wow, I feel so good. Been home for a few weeks now... I have no problems. I am actually a person that rarely feel like I have problems... If there is a solution, a problem isn't a problem. HOW INTRIGUING! I was reading this blog today and I'm so happy that I have it, to look back at. And damn, I never realised how hot I was, haha, have to try and appreciate myself more in the moment and not only two-four years later.

It felt so pleasing to read about old memories, so I'm going to share what I did today, in service of my future me. Today I spent a few hours by the water, we're having an insane spring/summer in Sweden this year by the way. In the evening I practiced driving with my father until I got frustrated (at back-parkering..), ran 6,5 kilometres and made Pho soup. Yeeeh.

1. When did you wake up today? 9.50 AM

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today? My father :)
3. How tall are you? 172 cm
4. The latest movie you saw? At cinema, about Utöya
5. How to impress you? be intelligent and fit and hot at the same time? How superficial am I? xD
6. What is your eyecolour? Medium brown
7. Do you like politics? Yes I like politics
8. What is your favourite location? My family's house on the countryside

9. Which is your least favourite location? I'm trying to think of a location that I dislike! Maybe Odlarskolan? Unpleasant memories from the school where I went in 7th grade.
10. Where do you think that you are in 10 years? Woow I will be 36... I think me and Dennis will live in a house... in Stockholm or Eskilstuna?? Some other city in Sweden? My GOD that feels so old.
11. What scared you as a child? Homeless people and dogs xD
12. What made you laugh hard recently? I visited Jasmine and Jacob in Gdansk last week and laughed for three days straight <3

13. Do you sleep with clothes on? Only if I really have to. In the winter usually or my butt gets cold...
14. Do you have any piercings? I have 5 in my ears. I want more!! But I'm scared. Haha.
15. Which cities have you lived in? Eskilstuna, Debrecen, Jakobstad
16. Favourite icecream? Stracciatella with VERY crushed chocolate like extremely small and lots of it
17. Favourite dessert? Classic swedish birthday cake haha ehh I've baked four this year already just to eat the cake myself....
18. Do you like coffee? I love myself a latte. I continuosly waste money on coffee on-the-go... love it so much...
19. What do you drink for breakfast? Water and coffee
20. Do you want children? Yes! At least 2, maybe 3.
21. What languages do you speak? Swedish, Russian, English... medical Hungarian
22. What do you spend your money on? Right now... I'm seemingly starting a company... but the past year I've spent money on jewellery and travelling.
23. Do you prefer calling or texting? I don't knooow, texting??
24. Do you curse? Period-wise, I have a period now with increased cursing hehe
25. Do you snore? I do lol.
26. How many relationships have you been in? Two
27. Are you good at math? I'm decent at spontaneous math and calculating in my head, and had top grades in primary school, but I kind of stopped developing there and only got a "pass" in math in high school
28. How often do you work out? The past weeks on average 4-5 days per week, so less compared to the past year.

29. What is the biggest scar on your body? Inside my heart. JK on my left knee from ACL-reconstruction.
30. Do you like tattoos? No, I don't like them :) but I saw one like yesterday that I somehow liked? This was a unique moment for me!



Ah, I downloaded the wordpress stuff but didn't set it up yet, also I don't know what my new blog domain is going to be? And should I connect it to my professional webside or no!??!? I reached the conclusion that I need to start a corporation in case I get my patent thingy patented.. and also I'm going on a course for botox injections in May... was thinking I could do botox injections on the side, as a side income I mean. Let me know if you want to get treated! I'll set up discounts for my readers! Haha.

At the moment I'm in Finland, all alone, got four more weeks here. Since neither Dennis nor none of my friends are here right now I literally have nothing to do on my spare time but gymming, so I've signed up to work evening shifts at the ER about every second day, this week I have four shifts. It sucks and time goes by so fast it's sad. By the way my "boss" at the ER is looking for doctors, so if anyone is interested in working at a small, general ER in the Swedish speaking part of Finland, message me.

Oh oh. All in all, alone and all, I am still pretty happy. This winter felt soooo long, the sun rays and 10 degrees celcius here mean everything to me right now.

Speaking of 10, another thing, my skin hasn't been this clear for over a month, in 10 years. I hope my pimple days are over for all eternity. Actually I started using a face wash with salicylic acid from Aco about five weeks ago, after my brothers recommendation, and I don't think it is a coincidence that my skin has been clearer since then, we're talking 10 years. It's just a face wash!! I'm so grateful.



Hiiiiii. I miss blogging. I think that if I start it again, it will be at a new platform or at least a new adress. Medschool is a closed chapter. I've altered the sidebar here as you may see.

What happened since October 3rd? I've been working in Finland, appx. 60% as a GP and 40% at the emergency. I am currently on a 5 week long break from work, the purpose of this was to learn how to drive - which I planned to do in Debrecen, I really planned it MONTHS back but once I arrived there, the driving school wanted pocket money and I dropped this idea pretty quickly and went on a trip to Israel with Dennis. Now I'm back home in Sweden, I still have another 3 weeks off from work and gonna try and use these for driving classes here in Sweden instead hahah.

What else happened. Dennis and I are still together and he is starting pre-residency in Surgery, in April. My patent-thingy... submitted that. Not sure if my idea can be patented but we shall see what happens to my application in the coming year... As for work, I'm leaving Finland and starting work in Sweden in May this year, at first as a GP in Flen, 20 minutes from my family's house on the countryside... and then...... I AM starting pre-residency at clinical immunology at Karolinska in August. Really!!! I found out yesterday and I am so happy........

The only picture I have from Israel on my laptop is a bikini picture, goes so well with the career content in this post. My phone is dead with all photos inside and I forgot my new-tech-USB-charger in Eskilstuna (the town where I grew up, my family still has an appartment there). I wonder if my fitness pics will ever be brought up in my career, doctors are somehow so exposed.

I had so much random positive feedback regarding my blog these past months, I just want to say thank you for reading and appreciating and I am just glad?? that my diary was relaxing reading for someone, or even amusing, or even that some have found it helpful or supporting through medical school... <3


What is going to happen to this blog?

I don't know, this blog was my diary during my struggle through medical school. I've had some sort of digital diary ever since I was 12 - 13 I think... some of you have seen my previous one from primary and high school, hahah. Heddelande, I will keep it here right where it is, but I feel like a large chapter of my life has ended, and this blog is part of that chapter...

What should I do? Should I start a new blog? Will I even keep writing if I start a new blog? Do I want to? Do I have time? Will Instagram suffice instead? Why am I not getting new followers on Instagram!? Should I create a professional website, connected to a personal blog, is that good for business?

What do I want with my life? No time to waste, I should start preparing for that right now.

Here look at my recent buffness.

I should post graduation pics

M.D. degree, it's here. Now joining doctors without licenses for a while. Starting work in Finland in November, meanwhile taking it easy back home, but also going to visit Dubai and Reykjavik a bit... and have some fractionated laser done on my face... kind of not looking forward to the latter, can you imagine...

I didn't say goodbye to a lot of friends before I left Debrecen, maybe because I can't realise that I have actually left. Sorry, I hope that I will meet you all again. I love you. Should I write a bye-message on Facebook? Are people still on Facebook nowadays? I love Debrecen, I loved being a student there... I loved group 11 and I loved pretty much everything apart from the Stomatology exam in 4th year (which I didn't even fail).


Oh dear!

The summer is coming to an end!? I finished my exams by the end of June, worked at the oncology ward in Eskilstuna for 5 weeks, spent some time with family and friends (and exercised of course ...) and now, at last, although I haven't been longing for it - there's only the Hungarian state examination left before I graduate and get my medical doctor degree. Ho-ly shit!

I have many goals for the coming year which is the main reason to why I've now bought a laptop. My tablet will no longer be enough, I have plans. Today I realised that I didn't stop by at my blog in ages... so if anyone is still out there reading, hi! And whoever implied in the comments that I have a(/multiple?) personality disorder, feel free to educate me further on the matter, how have you perceived me?

Once, when I messaged Leo taxi (airport shuttle service for students in Deb), and signed my message at the bottom, the driver showed up flashing a find-me-sign saying "SINCERELY MARIA".




Ohhh I love being back in Hungary, I love everything about it. Kind of had a shitty day due to personal issues but temperature has been over 20, lots of sun and yesterday I finally saw Bendy and Eleni over dinner and drinks. Missed them so so soo much. And finally I can wear my new denim jacket, can you guess how long I've been waiting for thease days...

Tomorrow I have to turn in my lecture book at the neurology department, again, and get that signature so that I can take the neurology exam... next week... eeek.


Because it's time to study


We're at our last days here in Jakobstad right now, and we finally had the last bit of snow for a while, I deeply hope so. Leaving this place with experience, paleness, money, and satiety for cardiology. Infection and oncology is taking the lead for options, I also like emergency medicine and surgery... But the lifestyle.. Not sure! Probably exhausting in a more physical way. Will I find a specialty which feels 100%?

What else? Moscow was lovely, and cold, and gorgeous. City centre is soooo beautiful, unfortunately not so much on the outskirts. Saw most of my relatives there which I'm really thankful for. Want to go back soon again.

What else? Dennis is the best. Except for when we argue, I'm the best no protest.

I am so, so, so excited to go back to Debrecen in a few weeks. Friends, CLIMATE, a life basically haha.



Semesteeer! Easter! I'm at home for a few days, tomorrow me and mom are going to Moscow. Haven't been there for six years!! Such a shame, but at last. It's going to be quite cold apparently, around zero degrees. By now (after six months of winter) I suppose zero degrees is going to feel warm-ish. We had absolutely lovely weather today though, I ran hill-intervals for 30 minutes and did a few exercises. Privet was my spectator.

By the way, I gained almost three kilos?? Since January. That's a LOT for me, I only weighed over 60 kilos once before, in high school when I was "fat" from high alcohol consumption heh heh. I've been pushing harder at the gym ever since I realised that I'm not going to be a lazy gymmer no more, which clearly works. I can do pistol squats now hehee... but I probably gained some fat too :)


Tick tox

Alas, here is a moment I cannot miss out on. I'm off from work today, currently on the train on my way home from Helsinki. I've applied for a Visa to Russia yehyeh, hopefully travelling to visit my grandmother and other close relatives in April. Sooo looking forward to it... Nothing can go wrong with the application pretty pleeease.

Shopped for a tiny bit of makeup too hihi. Wow Helsinki is amazing for makeup, but crazy expensive.

I'm legit exhausted, have been up since 4AM. It takes 4 hours to go from Jakobstad to Helsinki. Sweet dreams on me. Tomorrow back to work. The photo of me and Dennis between streets of Helsinki, is from last week.



Lone no more! <3 Life and work goes on over here. And gym of course, duh. Today I worked my first extra-shift at the emergency after my standard working day at the cardiology department. Total 8.00 - 21.30. I need the experience, but working over 12 hours like that is not worth the money... How do some people live their life continuously like this? That is the question.



I'm socially exhausted, in a very lonely way. I go to work, mostly have lunch alone, work over-time because I'm so slow with paperwork... spend two hours at the gym, eat and sleep. Oh and shop online.

I'm a social animal, really. I need my giggle, attention and gossip. Dennis has been away for two weeks and it is well enough. Saw Dollal and Nora this weekend for a fika, yay, but I can't live off a 50 minute fika! Spoke with my mom on the phone for some hour. How am I going to socially survive when medschool is over? What is going to happen!? Dennis, we must never be apart, you are stuck with me. DENNIIIIIS.

I'm almost speaking to strangers at the gym. And gym really saves me by the way. The feeling after exercise, as right now, oh it's so good... and I've noticed on occasions when I haven't exercised for two or three days, like during exams or travelling or viruses for instance... that I get angry! Mad and insulting things and people in my head, haha. I wonder if that is a deficiency of something, like some sort of withdrawal... or an excess of something waiting to be consumed.

Bla bla bla! Well I don't have a social life, so where else would I share it.

By the way, I ordered these tights from Gymshark. I have their flex leggings from before which may be the most comfortable gym tights I've ever owned. So eventually I got these too, but I actually ordered cropped ones, capris... they sent me full length by mistake. So I wrote an email, and they sent me new capris and let me keep these. That is actually really good service, no wonder Gymshark is becoming a big brand quickly. This model is not nearly as comfortable as the flex leggings though. These are a bit too short on me and tend to ride down around the crotch area, like most tights do in my opinion. Now I have two pairs, they look good but I wouldn't order more colours. Bla bla bla :)