Hello

Hiiiiii. I miss blogging. I think that if I start it again, it will be at a new platform or at least a new adress. Medschool is a closed chapter. I've altered the sidebar here as you may see.

What happened since October 3rd? I've been working in Finland, appx. 60% as a GP and 40% at the emergency. I am currently on a 5 week long break from work, the purpose of this was to learn how to drive - which I planned to do in Debrecen, I really planned it MONTHS back but once I arrived there, the driving school wanted pocket money and I dropped this idea pretty quickly and went on a trip to Israel with Dennis. Now I'm back home in Sweden, I still have another 3 weeks off from work and gonna try and use these for driving classes here in Sweden instead hahah.

What else happened. Dennis and I are still together and he is starting pre-residency in Surgery, in April. My patent-thingy... submitted that. Not sure if my idea can be patented but we shall see what happens to my application in the coming year... As for work, I'm leaving Finland and starting work in Sweden in May this year, at first as a GP in Flen, 20 minutes from my family's house on the countryside... and then...... I AM starting pre-residency at clinical immunology at Karolinska in August. Really!!! I found out yesterday and I am so happy........

The only picture I have from Israel on my laptop is a bikini picture, goes so well with the career content in this post. My phone is dead with all photos inside and I forgot my new-tech-USB-charger in Eskilstuna (the town where I grew up, my family still has an appartment there). I wonder if my fitness pics will ever be brought up in my career, doctors are somehow so exposed.

I had so much random positive feedback regarding my blog these past months, I just want to say thank you for reading and appreciating and I am just glad?? that my diary was relaxing reading for someone, or even amusing, or even that some have found it helpful or supporting through medical school... <3

I should post graduation pics

M.D. degree, it's here. Now joining doctors without licenses for a while. Starting work in Finland in November, meanwhile taking it easy back home, but also going to visit Dubai and Reykjavik a bit... and have some fractionated laser done on my face... kind of not looking forward to the latter, can you imagine...

I didn't say goodbye to a lot of friends before I left Debrecen, maybe because I can't realise that I have actually left. Sorry, I hope that I will meet you all again. I love you. Should I write a bye-message on Facebook? Are people still on Facebook nowadays? I love Debrecen, I loved being a student there... I loved group 11 and I loved pretty much everything apart from the Stomatology exam in 4th year (which I didn't even fail).

Oh dear!

The summer is coming to an end!? I finished my exams by the end of June, worked at the oncology ward in Eskilstuna for 5 weeks, spent some time with family and friends (and exercised of course ...) and now, at last, although I haven't been longing for it - there's only the Hungarian state examination left before I graduate and get my medical doctor degree. Ho-ly shit!

I have many goals for the coming year which is the main reason to why I've now bought a laptop. My tablet will no longer be enough, I have plans. Today I realised that I didn't stop by at my blog in ages... so if anyone is still out there reading, hi! And whoever implied in the comments that I have a(/multiple?) personality disorder, feel free to educate me further on the matter, how have you perceived me?

Once, when I messaged Leo taxi (airport shuttle service for students in Deb), and signed my message at the bottom, the driver showed up flashing a find-me-sign saying "SINCERELY MARIA".

SINCERELY, MARIA

Floral

Ohhh I love being back in Hungary, I love everything about it. Kind of had a shitty day due to personal issues but temperature has been over 20, lots of sun and yesterday I finally saw Bendy and Eleni over dinner and drinks. Missed them so so soo much. And finally I can wear my new denim jacket, can you guess how long I've been waiting for thease days...

Tomorrow I have to turn in my lecture book at the neurology department, again, and get that signature so that I can take the neurology exam... next week... eeek.

Howhowhow

Lone no more! <3 Life and work goes on over here. And gym of course, duh. Today I worked my first extra-shift at the emergency after my standard working day at the cardiology department. Total 8.00 - 21.30. I need the experience, but working over 12 hours like that is not worth the money... How do some people live their life continuously like this? That is the question.

Sincerely

I'm socially exhausted, in a very lonely way. I go to work, mostly have lunch alone, work over-time because I'm so slow with paperwork... spend two hours at the gym, eat and sleep. Oh and shop online.

I'm a social animal, really. I need my giggle, attention and gossip. Dennis has been away for two weeks and it is well enough. Saw Dollal and Nora this weekend for a fika, yay, but I can't live off a 50 minute fika! Spoke with my mom on the phone for some hour. How am I going to socially survive when medschool is over? What is going to happen!? Dennis, we must never be apart, you are stuck with me. DENNIIIIIS.

I'm almost speaking to strangers at the gym. And gym really saves me by the way. The feeling after exercise, as right now, oh it's so good... and I've noticed on occasions when I haven't exercised for two or three days, like during exams or travelling or viruses for instance... that I get angry! Mad and insulting things and people in my head, haha. I wonder if that is a deficiency of something, like some sort of withdrawal... or an excess of something waiting to be consumed.

Bla bla bla! Well I don't have a social life, so where else would I share it.

By the way, I ordered these tights from Gymshark. I have their flex leggings from before which may be the most comfortable gym tights I've ever owned. So eventually I got these too, but I actually ordered cropped ones, capris... they sent me full length by mistake. So I wrote an email, and they sent me new capris and let me keep these. That is actually really good service, no wonder Gymshark is becoming a big brand quickly. This model is not nearly as comfortable as the flex leggings though. These are a bit too short on me and tend to ride down around the crotch area, like most tights do in my opinion. Now I have two pairs, they look good but I wouldn't order more colours. Bla bla bla :)

Merrell in my H

My phone camera can take decent pics at times, but oh not today - beware of extraordinary picture quality.

Learned a lot this week. Spent 3,5 days at the cardiology department and 1,5 days at the ER. Usually I don't sleep well when I'm feeling stressed, but... well firstly I have been mentally exhausted before bedtime... but the stress at work doesn't make me anxious, like a big exam does for instance, rather excited... scared sometimes but, I saw and treated a neurotic angioedema yesterday, how rare and cool is that!!

I've been to gym Tue, Wed, Fri this week so far - not bad. Can't wait to go tomorrow. My new shoes are minimum cushioning "barefoot feel" running shoes. Oh, oh, oh, this is exactly what I've been looking for. So glad that I din't go with Nike again. My previous Nike Free Run 5,0 were also pure love... but I needed new shoes, and the updated Free Run's are squishier and softer... I rather wanted something stiffer, as close to barefoot-feel as possible, and found these from Merrell. Hell, I have no idea of the name of the shoe, all I remember is a strange name, too advanced for it's own good. Hard, ergonomic shoes strengthens the bones and muscles of the foot, and give more knee stability (no wiggle to the sides), thus also great for weightlifting. And these are 10/10 comfortable. PEACE.

Long time no fitness-post

So I can't remember if I shared detailed fitness goals here, for 6th year. But someone asked me about it this summer, and I told him that my goal for the coming year is to keep and maintain what I have. He was confused.

I didn't really know how much exercise I would have time for, with everything going on - moving out from Debrecen, Finland, travelling, exams - so I thought that it'd be too much to ask of myself to have any particular progress. Which is alright, but I realised this week that I'm done with that. Despite everything, I've actually kept an average of 5 workouts per week, but with some sort of mindset that I'm chillin' at the gym and not improving because I'm "so busy". Excuse me, me, but 5 times per week is perfect and besides, why not make the time spent at the gym WELL spent?

Enough with lazy exercising, (lol?) I have a few specific goals already:
- muscle ups! (me and Roy have a bet that we have to learn it by the end of March, haha)
- pistol squats, so hard for me, especially on my operated leg. Gonna learn it!
- crossfit moves in general, I barely know the names of the exercises so not going to try and name more.
- stronger triceps and biceps, my triceps particularly are so tiny, is it genetics??
- stronger obliques. Please, google "strong obliques". Don't know why I didn't bother to do oblique-dominant exercises before.
- more cardio. You've heard it before, an old goal which I am consistently unsatisfied with. The reason is that I want a strong and vascularized heart muscle and a good oxidative burst regularly.

Photos below are now, compared to January 2016. Minor difference. I've improved on my core strength this year and did a new PB in deadlifts (85kg) this summer, and developed my quads a bit, but that's all I think. In a year! Got a bit weaker in pullups and squats, ajajaj.

Past week in exercise:
Mon: rest/day before psych exam
Tue: gym (biceps, chest, hamstrings, obliques, 10 min intensive running)
Wed: gym (triceps, squats, abs)
Thu: nightshift/restday
Fri: crossfit class (learned how to snatch!)
Sat: gym (shoulders, deadlifts, abs)
Sun: gym (obliques, 2 km barefoot running, front squats)

Nem muködik

I realised in vain that I need a stamp from the university before I can take the pediatrics exam, and bought a new, earlier flight ticket. But about 30 minutes before departure the airport announced that all flights are cancelled. It was too windy. Damn it Swedish climate. I managed to get an exam date one day ahead but... the stress!! And lost study time!!! Sigh.

By the way I had plastic surgery. JK but I had five fibromas/moles removed with CO2 laser in Stockholm at a plastic surgery clinic. It was pretty cool. No, no botox yet but maybe next year. Visited Bazyl in Uppsla in the same ronud. Poor guy had to prepare for a presentation haha, but it was really fun to see him.

By the way again, I got a job for the summer! At the Oncology clinic as last year but this time as a doctor. IF our application (me working as a doctor before graduation) is approved by socialstyrelsen. Pretty pleeease.

Gotta get back to the lovely pages of pediatrics. PEACE.

Mornin

My supervisor has vacation today so I took a little sleep in. Gonna have a calm breakfast before I check out if I could possibly join in at the emergency department. Sunrise is happening at this moment, seems like we could get a sunny day today!?

Pietarsaari

What's up. I did not die yet, but I did move to Finland! Dennis and I are currently in Pietarsaari which is pretty far north and it's cold a-f and everything is expensive a-f. I will go to Debrecen in January to take some exams but my permanent residence will be here in Finland until May, minimum. So we moved out of our appartment on Poroszlay for good which feels saaad honestly and I will miss living there and the university life.

Moving out was really hard because Dennis had already left to Finland and I had a shit virus on and off and finally hard on for almost two weeks... and I had to leave so much clothes behind. Most of it I don't miss but there are a few items that I wish could have FITTED into my suitcase but it was... full... People laughed at me at the airport due to all the clothes that I was wearing and due to the fact that I could barely move my luggage anywhere. A psycho loon. I would have been ashamed of how I looked a couple of years back, but I could not care less and I felt badass for that, haha. Is that confidence or perspective?

So I have two more weeks left at psychiatry here until I start pediatrics and I really look forward to that because then we also change appartment from this one in the ghetto to one downtown.

Soooooo. Hi!

Minusplus

Hilarious weekend at the end of a miserable week. I was so stressed at practice... and sleep deprived. It was horrible. But on Friday we celerbrated Eleni and Saturday night was spent at Tieger's. Felt amazing to be surrounded by friends. Went running today, but I couldn't enter the arena due to an ongoing football game so I went to the stadium... and had to run holding my bag which was just... not convenient at all so I settled at 2,2 km. No problem bringing a bag to the arena but I can't leave it in the grass at the stadium. Still 2k is much better than nothing and altogether I walked + ran 8,7 km.

5/6 weeks

Starting my 5th week at the Oncology Clinic. Aah, how little I knew five weeks ago! I was an egg, now a sticky chicken ready to dry. Is how I feel.

Had the beeeest workout after work today (triceps and butt) and got the beeessst news when I got home. Ahhh I'm having a beer and I'm going to sleep like a... peaceful sticky chicken. Some selfies from the bathroom at work and PEACE.

Crimson

Pics from today. Wowowoow what a summery day! Utterly unusual here in Sweden unfortunately, so I took it as a sign not to study a single second. Mah-mah-mah. Yes because I'm planning to take the neurology final in two months... Help me.

Löv you

Aaa what a busy week. Very efficient but... days are just disappearing. Dennis has only been home for a week and is going to Debrecen tomorrow and now I won't see him again for 5 weeks... and then for another 5 weeks... ueek WHY. We will be together at times but 6th year is definitely going to be different... more about that later...

Ah hellu

Heey. What a week! Slept a little learned a lot. So far I really like it at the oncology clinic and it is definitely an option for specialization in the future. Going to be there for 5 more weeks. And I've submitted my thesis ye! Finally. Now I'm just expecting some feedback before I can make the final adjustments.

I've been waiting to finish my thesis to start writing an abstract for an idea that I have that I want to try and patent. So that might come up soon... We will see how that goes :)

At the countryside now, so nice. Got dropped off on the way here and ran the last bit home.

Cucumber

So, first day at work tomorrow as "physician's assistant" at the hospital in Eskilstuna. I will be at the oncology clinic and don't really know what to expect of it, but I have a good feeling. Let's hope that I'm right. Very glad for the job :)

Weather's been nice but rainy today, got work done on my thesis (never endiiing) and had a little workout in the basement to comfort my poor butt that has been sitting all day.

Pics from earlier this week when I went with my father on a meeting... regarding fibre net (internet) on the countryside. As of today we're using 4G out here which isn't faster than a cucumber.

Luncheerio

A few pics that I didn't post from our lunch with the girls before I went home to Sweden. Love you all! And no Sonia there is no photo of you here haha.

Such a nice day! But I got reminded why I never eat at Belga, their food is actually really bad. Just look at my noodles at the short end of the table... or Bendy's coleslaw... yikes that was awkward.

Take it easeyy

"This is it. It's my last food. I put everything I had. It's tasty... But this is the end. I'm out of toiletpaper too."

After having read 5 year old posts of my own blog, I can clearly state: HAHA how could I be so worried all the time!? Every single post gives a glimpse of an impending doom. Is this really the life of 1st year students... wow... I remember it was hard but my mentality has changed so much through medschool that I can barely relate to the thoughts I had at that time. Including all but the toilet paper, I can still relate to that. And how does it take more than five years for wisdom teeth to come out...? because this part of my life really hasn't changed.

Stopped by the gym this morning with my father, so nice to get it done early! Did shoulders and abs. The whole afternoon has been absolutely idyllic like agwagawegge I could not ask for a lovelier summer day.

Minus a lot

I had two exams this week so unfortunately I don't have better before - and after pics, but I love the cut, and what a nice hairdresser! He really cared for exactly what I wanted and cut it just like I asked him. I don't know the name of his studio but it's at Jenö u. 17, if someone wants his number just let me know.

Both exams went great, I got a 5 in both hematology and forensic medicine and it feels so good. Now I have just one exam left in about two weeks, and then I'm done with my last semester of studies here.

Spoiling myself these past days... Sitting here chilling with a beer and checking my online orders just enjoyiiing being free of duty haha. But I also dropped 600 grams of raw chicken on the kitchen floor today and had to break into my mailbox, which a neighbor had locked for me, somehow... I don't even have a key to it myself... ANYWAYS. None of it matters. Could life get any better? Hardly.