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Heeyy! Thanks for checking in. I thought I'd share an update including my beloved pink coat, photos below are from today when Dennis and I took a stroll downtown. 

I'm not pregnant. I'm not engaged. Haha... and guess what, I'll be changing jobs. Not because I didn't like infectology, I love infectology and it has been the absolute funnest job I ever had until now. I'll let you know where I continue, it's not settled.

This year has been hard for several reasons and I haven't been as happy as I usually am.

I've made progress muscle-wise though, workouts have been great and I've barely even had a cold since my flu in January.

Also I have so many houseplants now, partly for therapy and I guess I simply got infected by the "plant trend" which I'm not sure has been acknowledged but there certainly is one.

I had a lovely day today!!! I'll try to check in soon again.

Commenting 20 confessions from 2013

I stumbled upon this list of "20 confessions" from 2013 that I thought would be fun to go through and comment on the way, to see my own reaction and to see if anything has changed.

- I'm shy unless I'm in a good mood - Still true. Even truer since I returned back to normal life vs. uni life.
- I have excel files with statistics on parameters in my life such as milk consumption, menstrual cycle ... etc. - WTF haha not anymore! I'm tempted though xD and I stopped drinking milk (except in coffee) after I measured my cholesterol levels... which are normal now.
- I only scored 100% on a test once in my life. It was in high school at math (Matte A) haha... - LOL I don't remember this at ALL! Glad that I wrote it down, otherwise I'd say that I can't remember a single time that I scored 100%.
- I was in love with Orlando Bloom when I was 13 and fantasised about how I was his girlfriend - Followed him on instagram recently...
- I think that I can't focus on one single thing for more than 15 minutes --15 minutes!? I'm down at what, 5 minutes now?
- 9/10 times I can't spell "exercise" without looking it up - Gotcha back Maria, exercised this one.
- I get anxious if I don't carry some sort of pocket mirror - Not anymore! Confidence? Two weeks ago though, I randomly met someone I didn't talk to in years, then when I got inside the elevator at home I saw that I had black pepper between my teeth. I wished I was still addicted to a pocket mirror.
- I like One Direction and play their Top 50 songs on YouTube sometimes - This one must have been a phase 
- I can't bitch. I would never win a battle hahaa - Hmm na I would lose big time.
- I love myself more than anything else --Still love myself a lot, but there are so many things and people that I also love...
- I have the general attitude that I can get any guy that I want, so if a cute guy is actually not interested I get awkwardly, internally confused and disappointed EVEN THOUGH I have a boyfriend just because the behaviour interferes with my exaggerated ego - WTF Maria xD
- I want to be a vegetarian but I'm allergic to both fish egg and nuts so it's a hopeless case... - I've implemented a tiny bit of veganism but yeah this really is a hopeless case
- I have been the slowest eater my whole life. I had to sit alone and eat in both kindergarden and early primary school because there was no point to wait for me to finish my food - on my last job (family medicine) in Stockholm I sat alone for 5 minutes almost every day finishing my food, making the first patient after lunch wait for me... oh god...
- I only use free foundation samples because I don't want to buy one since I don't want to start using foundation (??) - Girl, you got two foundations now, one for summer and one for winter. But you never covered your face with foundation, just spot concealing on bad days.
- One of my essential skin care products is scotch tape - My skin isn't as dry right now, but still quite true, I have scotch tape in my make up bags.
- I played almost exclusively with boys until I was 11 - today 80% of my friends are women
- If I have to throw away food I place it in the center of a huge bush when nobody sees so that some animal can eat it - aahh good habit. Will pick it up again if I live at an appropriate place (nearby a bush)
- I easily cry - a bit better today but still true
- I can leave worn clothes in piles on the floor for several days - No, NO.
- For many years, until two months ago, I set my clocks appx. 15 minutes ahead to help me arrive to places on time - NOOOOO hahaha how!? Why would anyone do this to themselves!!?

Up to the date

Ah yes.

I have three weeks off now in between jobs, and wanted to say Hi for a while now.

Me and Dennis actually really like it in Stockholm, living there has definitely exceeded my expectations. Best part of it is living 10 minutes away from Matilda!?

My 6 months at Clinical Immunology and transfusion medicine did not impress me however, maybe mainly because this area is a lab-specialty in Sweden.. which I've now learned isn't really my cup of tea. Although the cases that they handle there are rare, complex and super interesting, the work itself was often monotone and boring. 8-12 was usually packed without two seconds to breathe, whilst 12-16.30 consisted of filling in forms, phone calls and just waiting for the clock to tick... I even finished 15 points of Business economics during those afternoons (distance uni course) and still had time left to revise immunology, sit and think and feel tortured from not being able to go home haha. Stress is bad of course but I like challenges and want to feel busy. I want lots of patient contact and diagnostics. But I am also disappointed with my boss/es, in the end I don't feel like my efforts were appreciated, or that what I did was of value. Maybe it wasn't of particular value? Minimum one probably two young colleagues also talked badly about me, I didn't confront anyone because confrontation is not a wise move in Sweden... one of them didn't even write bye when I left lol. But most colleagues were super nice, especially the nurses <3 Wrong place for me guys! I am moving over to Infectious diseases which has been my number one goal since medschool... in the year book I wrote that I will specialize in "Infectology, Oncology or Family medicine" which I think was a damn accurate analysis of my future me, so far haha. In retrospect I'm often impressed by myself. Enough Maria, not everyone understand your humour - unfortunately this is a reflection that I now make after one year in Sweden where you can't really speak your mind unless what you say is mainstream. I'm even slightly hesitant to post this in case someone from work would use it against me somehow. I dare you :P

Want to know what I did today? I went to gym with my dad, I drove to Eskilstuna yeh I got a licence now. My dad has a driving ban (? is this the right word) because unfortunately he had a stroke/brainstem infarction in January. Oh my god it was the worst that has ever happened in my life. All in all the fact that we are now going to gym together, less than three months later is a miracle which can't be measured in words. Today I also hmmm started a new painting and made HAHA HAD TO INTERRUPT MY WRITING CUS A BADGER WAS EATING PRIVET'S FOOD OUTSIDE anyways also made Kimchi this evening which I tried once before in medschool but that turned out way too spicy like coagulative necrosis bleach your intestines, but this time..!

So a lot can happen in six months. I just finished 5 weeks of family medicine in Stockholm, had more fun than I did for half a year at immuno. I am not un-nervous about starting infectology because of my first experience at KS but I look forward to it so so much. The doctor group seems to be 1-2 school classes large and I look forward to finding some friendliness and new challenges there. My boss also seems like a cool lady.

See ya later!